A Letter to William

My dear William
I received your letter this Date and rote to you at wonce but you Aught to have had a letter pas this on the way and if so that wood Explain to you what my intentions were but you change your mind so often that I do not think you will settle to do any thing it is now six years you have left me and at 4 ½ years you had your Liberty and you have never sent me a pound to help my self with and if I had not been situated with a home as I have I do not now
What wood have become of me you say you wish to now how I am placed how is it possible I can Explain more to you than I have you may not get my Letters and then you do not now hoes hands they get in to and it is of more Concequnce than you are aware of I dare not Ecnolage you name I am with I can explain all to you if we should meet you a gain but you do not seem to see the disgrace that you stand in but so it is and to be of any comfort to your self or me you must meat me as some other relation to what you are As I am now mixed up with a grate many people and let me go ware I will a bought the Colney I shall be shure to meet with some one that I now and thank God I can say treating with the grates respect do not think that I whish to cast my reflections on you god for bid but I most say when I sane by your Letter that you had been in trouble when you had, had six years of it what must I Expect when I see you a gain for god nowes I have seen trouble Enuf for this last 10 or 12 years and never a woman discoved in Life
There is a nother thing I wish to im press on your mind that is Harriet has had a very good ofer and if we do not meat you as I say she will be undun for Ever and it wood not make any difrifrance in her well wishes to you and I can Explain all things to you when I see you and if you Loock at things in the rite light you will see that I am right and I think it wood be hard if you chould not get your self and me a respectable Liven the grate Curs of this Country is drink if a man do that he will never do any good
I can not make your letters out for you never rite twice a lick you sent word to me in one Letter you should go to the Ile of France then an other time you are going to do some thing Elce now as to your Comeing hear is quite oute of the question when the Bridge is finished we are all gon for one thing and I Expect that will be in a bought 3 or 4 Munnts from this time then I had made up my mind to go from hear to Port Elizabeth with I tould you in my last Letter but if I do it will be a grate Expence wish wood come upon Haines but wish I should Expect you wood Ecnolage to him
When we meet I do not now what his in tenshens ar of doing at present and if you wish doing me your self any good you can not keep your self too quick and too your self as Every body is tring to now your Buisness and that is the very thing you must keep to your self I dare not Even Ecnolage your Letters for they are looked on as bad coming from your place so I hope and trust that you will look well at what I have said and see that it is for our good I can tell you that Harriet Look at your –eas--- with a –ara- you must now that she is not like a Child now and as to poor Charles I Can not say more A bought I have done my best he was 21 this very mounth and I thort a grate deal a bought him but it is to now purpoes but you see when a parent do rong what a sorow and troble it bring upon all for life but if you have not seen your way now you never will I should like to End my days respectful and in peace but god nows now my dear if you do not hear any more from me you now my in tentions were to go if I am spared but I am now at this present time very ill but I hope I shall soon be better Harriet send her kind love to you and hope some day to see you
I will call at Cape Town poste office before I leive and see if there is a letter for me so good by and god Bless you and prosper
You in my sincere wishes
H N